2022-11-03 Thu 11:38 AM ![[moses_lotus_flower_mandala_top_view_8k_meditation_gold_color_sa_b1fca2c8-e3da-4635-adfc-d66a32f2fa36.png]] > It was most essential for me to have a normal life in the real world as a counterpoise to the strange inner world. My family and my profession remain the base to which I could return, assuring me that I was an actually existing, ordinary person. The unconscious contents could have driven me out of my wits. But my family, and the knowledge: I have a medical diploma from a Swiss university, I must help my patients, I have a wife and five children, I live at 228 Seestrasse in Kusnacht—these were actualities which made demands upon me and proved to me again and again that I really existed, that I was not **a blank page whirling about in the winds of the spirit**, like Nietzsche. (Jung, 1961, p. 189) Apt description of [[Nietzsche]]'s final decade. He was something like a blank page whirling about in the winds of the spirt. Inventing identity and reality at the whim of the moment. on the [[Aims and benefits of psychotherapy]]: > My life is a story of the self-realization of the unconscious. Everything in the unconscious seeks outward manifestation, and the personality too desires to evolve out of its unconscious conditions and to experience itself as a whole. > –[[Ref. Carl Jung 1961 - Memories, Dreams, Reflections]] (p. 13) 2023-01-21: > Somewhere deep in the background I always knew that I was two persons. ([[Personality One]]) One was the son of my parents, who went to school and was less intelligent, attentive, hard-working, decent, and clean than many other boys. ([[Personality Two]]) The other was grown up—old, in fact—skeptical, mistrustful, remote from the world of men, but close to nature, the earth, the sun, the moon, the weather, all living creatures, and above all close to the night, to dreams, and to whatever “God” worked directly in him. I put “God” in quotation marks here. For nature seemed, like myself, to have been set aside by God as non-divine, although created by Him as an expression of Himself. Nothing could persuade me that “in the image of God” applied only to man. In fact it seemed to me that the high mountains, the rivers, lakes, trees, flowers, and animals far better exemplified the essence of God than men with their ridiculous clothes, their meanness, vanity, mendacity, and abhorrent egotism—all qualities with which I was only too familiar from myself, that is, from personality No. 1, the schoolboy of 1890. Besides his world there existed another realm, like a temple in which anyone who entered was transformed and suddenly overpowered by a vision of the whole cosmos, so that he could only marvel and admire, forgetful of himself. Here lived the “Other,” who knew God as a hidden, personal, and at the same time suprapersonal secret. Here nothing separated man from God; indeed, it was as though the human mind looked down upon Creation simultaneously with God. > > What I am here unfolding, sentence by sentence, is something I was then not conscious of in any articulate way, though I sensed it with an overpowering premonition and intensity of feeling. At such times I knew I was worthy of myself, that I was my true self. As soon as I was alone, I could pass over into this state. I therefore sought the peace and solitude of this “Other,” personality No. 2. > > The play and counterplay between personalities No. 1 and No. 2, which has run through my whole life, has nothing to do with a “split” or dissociation in the ordinary medical sense. On the contrary, it is played out in every individual. In my life No. 2 has been of prime importance, and I have always tried to make room for anything that wanted to come to me from within. He is a typical figure, but he is perceived only by the very few. Most people’s conscious understanding is not sufficient to realize that he is also what they are. > -Jung, Carl Gustav. Memories, Dreams, Reflections (pp. 63-64). Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group. Kindle Edition.